Perceived Rejection

Do you know what perceived rejection is?  I didn't know until about six years ago... and let me tell you... it's not good.  It's that rejection you just know someone is sending your way.  Not because of something they directly said to you, usually it's what they didn't say.  Not because of a nasty look they gave you, usually it's from a look of indifference. When you make yourself vulnerable to someone and they aren't comfortable with what you are sharing.  They don't come out and tell you, but you feel them pull away. You know you hear them saying... "you're too much... or you're not enough."
It's the rejection that we surmise in our heads and hearts without any concrete evidence... and can I just say... IT SUCKS!
I have struggled for most of my life with perceived rejection.  Every difficult moment I have with a relationship I care about ends with me battling against MSU (making stuff up) in my mind and heart.  Fighting against the agreements my mind wants to make.  Most of which I might add, are a big fat lie!  Straight from an enemy who comes to lie, steal and destroy; and if he can do that by building up scenarios of rejection in my mind... he's gonna do it.  ARG!  That makes me so mad!  I know better! I know when I hear a voice that isn't from my Father in Heaven so why do I let this bring me down?
I long for a day when my identity if so deeply rooted in my Father that MSU doesn't happen anymore because others acceptance of me pales in comparison.

I know who my Maker is.
He is the creator of Heaven and earth.
He has made with a unique set of gifts and talents that are custom made!
He looks at me and adores what He sees.
He woo's me with His unfailing love and devotion.
There is no safer place for my heart or my identity than in His hands.
This is truth!
This is what I make a choice to believe!